U don't know pain

I want to pretend that you're still here
and that I'm crying a litre of invisible tears
Mommy dearest, I made so much promises
it was only for you I made all those wishes
We're going to live in a big house, don't you worry
All in time, so you won't have to endure any misery
i close my eyes
and hope that tomorrow brings a better day
I open my eyes and cry
because I'm still not okay