Late at night I start to cry
As I think of all the old times
The ones with family and friends
The one where all the time blends
Thoughts race through my mind so fast
And memories begin to relapse
Thinking back in my mind
Bringing back those certain times
When life seemed so hard to go on
And I thought those thoughts would never be gone
I wanted time to stand right still, in this comfort just until
Beauty contests and judging panels weren't
The centre of the petals
The petals that revolve around the tiny place our world
Has become
My nights grew long and tears became friends for they
Where the ones who didn't pretend
To care for what I had to say
To know that everything wasn't okay
Although my tears drowned my fears
They couldn't hide the truth
From what I felt for oh so long
The tears just hid it all for years long
Until that time
When all was let loose
And the truth became a wide known source
Of how my thoughts and feelings where and that all this time
I was a liar.
I never said I feel this way, nor did I ever try to explain
The feelings and pressure put on me by others
I tried to ignore, but my fears got the more
The more of me in which I say is the part of me I can never explain
To a full extent that anyone will understand.
