Daddy, i need you

.........DAD........... IM ASHED TO AMITT IT, BECAUSE YOU HURT ME REAL BAD, BUT DEEP INSIDE OF ME, I KNOW I STILL WANT YOU TO BE AROUND, I TELL MYSELF EVERY NIGHT THAT I DON'T HAVE A DAD, I WAS BORN WITH OUT ONE, BUT SOMEWHERE DEEP INSIDE MY LONELY, BLACK, BROKEN HEART, I KNOW YOUR STILL MY FATHER.
I HOPE THAT ONE DAY, I WILL START TO BELIEVE YOUR LIES AND SO WILL EVERYONE AROUND ME, AND THAT WE COULD BE A FAMILY TOGETHER, YOU, ME, STEPH AND MUMMY.
BECAUSE DADDY, I MISS YOU SO BADLY.
YOU DON'T RELIES HOW SICK MUMMY IS, OR HOW SICK WE ARE OF LIVING LIKE THIS, MUMMY'S LIFE IS GOING TO END, THEN WHERE WILL ME AND STEPH GO?
YOUR THE MOST ROTTEN, GUTLESS, HATED PERSON I KNOW ON THIS PLANET BUT YET, I STILL LOVE YOU DADDY.
YOU ARE MY DADDY.........