I want you back
But I want the old you
The one who would to anything for me
The one who made me want to do anything back
You've changed into someone I don't recognize anymore
The old you would never hurt me
But I had no choice but to watch you be with her
That hurt more than any scar
I tried, I tried so hard to hate you
But you were all I thought about
Were you holding her hand?
Kissing her?
Spleeping in the same bed as her?
The images just burned in my mind
I could feel my heart shatter as you told me you never wanted to be with me anymore
And I believed you because you had never said words that cold to me before
And I listened as you told me every reason why you chose her instead of me
The old you would never make me cry
But when a tear started to fall
You just turned away
Leaving me to wipe it away myself
And then you gave away my secret
Leaving it exposed
The one you knew would hurt
You can say it wasn't you
But I don't know if I'd even believe you
You were someone else
Once, you were the person who would never hurt me and never make me cry
But I had never wanted to kill myself more
The pain was almost too much to bare
And I sat in my bed and cried
Cried for hours for what you had given away
I wanted to take all my tears and drown in them
Maybe then'd you see what you were doing to me
Probably not
She was too perfect, you couldn't take your eyes off her
She made you laugh
She made you happy
She made you different
I tried to move on
I found someone who makes me laugh
And who can't wait to see me every day
But he's not you
I know I shouldn't compare
But I do
He doesn't do the little things you did for me
We see each other almost every day
We hold hands
Tell each other I love you
Kiss
But when I go home
And I fall asleep
It is you that I dream of
I was testing you to see if you could go without her when she came back
But after all we've been through
After all the things said and done
She's still the one you choose
I would give it all up
I would give it all back
To have you beg for me back
And hear you promise you would do anything for me
And know that you would keep it
I would give it all up
I would give it all back
To have you tell me you love me
As you hold my face in your hands
and kiss me
I would give it all up
I would give every goddamn thing back
If I was the girl, the one person you wanted to spend the rest of your life with
But I guess I get to keep my mistakes
Because that girl will never be me
I still love you
But I don't want to anymore
Because I'm still in love with someone that doesn't even exist
