It feels like yesterday, when you left me at the airport that day. I still wait every single day for your return, so we can be together and chase after are dreams like you once said to me. Do you still think about me? The same way i do? How are things going in Taiwan? Are you going to drinking pearl milk tea when you are reading this letter from me? Do you still working endless hours on your work and not even resting? Please write back to me soon, cause i really want to know how you been. Please send me pictures of the wonderful things there that you see. So you can share it with me and maybe remember me more deeply. Miss you so much, hope you come back soon!
your girlfriend
Yumi Moroki <3
I stood at the mail box once again on a cold midnight, holding my letter to Fade so tightly next to me. I open the box and slowly set the letter free, hoping it will reach Fade and his far away feelings."Sending another letter to Fade again?" I turned my head and saw Jerry standing behind me."Yeah, i just wanted to see how he been lately." Jerry started laughing "I'm sure he perfectly fine, don't worry about him" he started walking close up to me." So are you free right now? Want to go get a cup of coffee?" Jerry looked at me, I just stood still and didn't say anything."Don't be scared, I'm not going to do anything. Just a cup of coffee." After he told me that he wasn't going to be doing anything, i just ended up agreed with him for a cup of coffee. The midnight street were quiet and lively, we both just walked slowly down the street and into the coffee shop that me and Fade would always go too. "How you holding up Yumi? Has everything been alright for you?" Jerry looked at me with his blue color eyes and asked me. I held the warm cup of coffee next to me and smelled the sweet scent and felt the warm coffee steam.Then i slowly took a drink out of the warm coffee."I been good, just lately been feeling lonely that's all." Jerry was looking at the people outside walking back and forth in this cold city."Is that so? You should had gave me call when ever you are feel you need company." Jerry stared at me, right into my pale brown color eyes and told me. My head was down and i looked at my coffee and told Jerry." I didn't want to bother you so much, besides I'm happy that Fade is coming back soon." Jerry hand slowly reached out and touched mine, i lifted my head up and to see Jerry staring straight at me with his blue eyes again."You shouldn't feel like this Yumi, your a great girl. Don't ever feel like you are in any way a burden on me or anything. Feel free to call me when ever you free like you need company" Jerry held onto my hands so tight and firmly. It almost made me think, that Fade was back with me again."Shall i walk you home?" Jerry smiled and looked at me. I just nodded my head and we both stood up from are chairs and left the little tiny coffee shop really quietly. As i was walking next to Jerry, i would secretly look at him while he didn't notice and admire his charmness."Is something wrong Yumi?" He looked at me and asked, i just smiled and just kept on walking.
When Jerry walked me to my doorway, he smiled at me and told me "Alright take care Yumi! If you need anything just call me." I just nooded my head and Jerry slowly just started to fade away in the dark alley way. When i got home, i dived right on to my bed, stared up and looked at the picture of Fade and me. I slowly started to break into tears, cause i miss Fade so much. So much that i wish he was here with me to tell me everything was going to be alright, then my house phone started to ring. I wiped up my tears and got up and picked up the phone that was next to me."Hello?" i asked with a little bit of tears in my eyes, a cold sweet voice answer my question with his own little question of his."Yumi don't tell me your crying again?" I stood still for a few moments and started to slowly break down into tears again."Fade? Is that you? Is that really you Fade?" i started shooting out my feelings and emotions into the phone. "Of course it's me, who else would it be?" He was laughing while he said that "Why are you crying again Yumi?" his cold pale voice came in tact again. I started to wipe up my tears again and answer him"Why else would i be crying? It's cause i miss you, you dumb stupid idiot."Fade was laughing once again and so was I."Wipe up those tears cry baby, cause i took the time to call you right now. Did i not?" I felt really happy talking to Fade again, his care and those lost feelings were slowly coming back to me."What have you been up too? What took you so long to call me!" i started yelling at him, i could feel that Fade felt kind of pressure on him and he started laughing and told me" I had to get a phone card, in order to make a call back to the state of course. That takes time! it's not like a one day thing." I started yelling at him again"Couldn't you do it any faster then? You stupid idiot!" Fade just started laughing again "I'm sorry, i didn't know you miss me that much! If i didn't get this phone card so soon, you maybe would had pass out then." I started to blush and i was quiet for a while."Yumi, i called cause i wanted to tell you something." I held the phone really tight next to my ear "What is it?" everything felt really serious and quiet, then Fade went on."I called to tell you that i miss you and don't worry about me. I'll be back soon, when I'm done with my work here."i started blushing again and started yelling at him again."Who said i was worry? I wouldn't care if anything happen to you." Fade just went on laughing again."Well I'm glad your alright, well i have to go. I'll call you when ever I'm free, take care now!" I slowly started to miss him and his voice again, even though we were talking on the phone again. I really missed him."Take care of yourself Fade, I'll be waiting for your return." Fade was quiet, but finally he said "I'll be coming home soon Yumi, I'll see you when i come back." Then we both gave each other a kiss on the phone and hung up. After the phone call, i dived right on to my bed again and stared at the picture of me and Fade, i ended up smiling for the second time that day.
A week has went by, Fade would call me every Monday and Friday to tell me about the things he been doing lately. He was really excited that he got the letter i sent him, the weird thing was. He was drinking pearl milk tea when he was reading it. Beside the relationship i had with Fade, Jerry would try to ask me out and invite me to hang out with him. I would kindly refuse, but some how he just didn't want to take no as a answer. So he would keep pressuring me until i agreed to go hang out with him. One day when i came home from work, i open my mail box to see a letter from Fade, i quickly went inside the house and dived into bed. Open the letter slowly and started to read what Fade wrote to me.
Dear Cry Baby Yumi <3
I been really good lately, just the warm weather here is hard to get use too. Maybe if you were here? You could give me coldness by telling me one of those cold jokes you always love to say! Other then that, do you still remember that dream we both want to chase? i guess I'm slowly reaching mine, are you reaching yours yet? If i remember correctly, your dream was to be with me? just kidding! i mean.. to be with the man of your dreams and travel far away to a place where nobody knows both of your names, maybe find a place and settle down and both fall asleep under the shadow of a tree. What a wonderful dream you have! Just wait for me alright Yumi! I'll be coming home soon!! Then we can both live are dreams! Miss you so much Yumi! i wish you were here to see the morning and night of the Taiwan streets. Maybe this place will be the one, where nobody will know are names and were we both can fall asleep. Who knows? Well, See you soon Yumi!
your boyfriend
Fade Mu <3
P.S: If you need tissue, i have some at my apartment <3!
I started to cry again, that stupid idiot always seems to have his way of making me cry. Then i looked at clock and it was about time where i meet up with Jerry. So i quickly took a shower when i still had a bit time left. When i came out of the shower, my cell phone started to ring.I slowly picked up the phone and answer."Hello?" i asked "Are you ready? I'm already here!" i walked toward the window and peek out and saw Jerry standing right outside my door waiting."Wait a moment! I need to get dressed." Jerry started laughing and answer me."Can i maybe come in and get a peek?" i started yelling at him "What do you think? You damn pervert!" Jerry just kept on laughing, i was furious so i just hung up the phone and walked into my closet and got my dress i had and quickly got ready, cause me and Jerry were going to a party at his office and he needed a date so i ended up agreed to go with him as his date. When i finally came out from my house, Jerry looked at me with his eyes about to pop out and his mouth drop down. I looked at him with his perfectly fit suit and his black color tie. He started speaking first and he looked at me and told me "Did heaven lose a angel? Cause you look really amazing Yumi!" I started blushing and my face was turning red."Thank you, you don't look so bad either." Jerry just started to laugh again."Shall we get going then? My lovely date?" he reach his hand out and waited for my response. I slowly reach my hands out and then we were on are way.
When we arrive at Jerry office party, people were coming toward us and asking us question. They were asking if we were going out and if we were seeing each other. His friends would tell him that he was a really lucky man to bring such a hottie to this boring party. His boss would talk to me, telling me good things about Jerry and how well he does his job. I just kept smiling and laugh when everyone started laughing.In my mind i felt like i didn't belong, But i didn't want to disappoint Jerry in any way so i just kept on smiling and laughing. In my mind i was thinking about Fade the whole time, how i wish he was here right now. I finally got a chance to get a break, so i ran to the balcony of the building and stare up at the night sky. I was thinking about Fade and his boring stupid jokes. I was thinking about Fade and his way of always making me able to cry."What are you doing here?" I turned my head around and saw Jerry standing at the door way of the balcony with two drinks in his hands. I quickly turned my head around again and stared up at the night stars again."I'm thinking about him Jerry." Jerry walked up next to me and handed me the drink he was holding."Thinking about Fade huh?" I nodded my head and looked at Jerry and saw a disappointed face. Before i could say anything again, Jerry started talking again."What does Fade have that i don't have?" Jerry looked at me straight into my eyes with those blue eyes of his."What gives Fade the right to leave you here and go on his own little adventure of his?" Jerry head was down and he just kept on asking question after question, finally he said it."Yumi, i really don't understand why you like him and not me?" Jerry slowly sat down on the floor with his back facing the balcony wall. I kneel next to Jerry and told him."There is no reason, i just like him. More clearly, i love him!" Jerry was looking at me with those blue eyes of his again."I'm sorry Jerry, i have to go." i stood up and slowly started to walk away and left Jerry sitting alone on the floor. I slowly walked out of building where the party was held. Then slowly started walking home. I kept on walking and walking till i finally got home, but when i got home. Jerry was already at my doorway waiting for me. I slowly walked up to him and he looked at me again with those blue eyes of his and then he collapse to the floor. I ran to him and check if he was alright. Jerry kept on saying the same thing over and over, and clearly he was drunk.He suddenly held on to my arm so tight and firmly. So tight and firm that it started to hurt my arm, he started yelling at me "Why do you like Fade so much? Why do you not like me? Don't you know that i like you so much, just as much as Fade does?" i quickly broke free and open the door to my house and went inside as fast as i could. I locked the door tight and knocking sounds were coming from the outside. Jerry was screaming out his lungs asking me to open the door. I had my back on the door and slowly started to slide down to the floor. Knocking sounds kept on repeating one after another. Jerry kept on screaming asking me to come out and be with him. I slowly started to break into tears not knowing what to do or what to expect. I just kept praying for Fade to show up, i just kept praying for Fade to be here with me. Finally it was over, everything was quiet once again. No longer anyone was screaming or the door knocking sounds. I sat next to my door and broke out into tears once again, but the phone started to ring before i could really cry out.
I used the last remaining energy i had left and went to pick up my phone. I picked up the phone and before i knew it i called out his name. "Fade!" i called to him "What's wrong Yumi? Is everything okay?" i couldn't get my words out and i couldn't speak at all. All i could do was cry my tears out of my eyes."Whats wrong Yumi? Did something happen to you?" Fade was starting to get worried and scared, cause all he could hear was a girl crying. Finally i told him"I miss you so much Fade! I miss you so much.." i kept on repeating over and over again. Fade was starting to get really worried "What happen Yumi? Are you hurt?" Fade kept on asking me question, i just kept on crying out to him. Telling him how much i miss him, then finally Fade said to me "Yumi! Wait for me, i'll be right there!" I didn't really understand what he meant, but i just kept on crying and crying. Then finally the door bell rang, i slowly stood up from the floor and walked slowly to the door. I slowly open the door and then my tears started to break out again. Fade smiled at me while he was holding a bundle of flower in his hands. "Surprise!" he said to me in a exciting voice, i stood still with tears coming out of my eyes."When did you?... When did you come back?" Fade smiled at me and handed me a tissue to wipe my tears and then told me."I just got off the plane, so i thought i would just drop by and check up on you before i went home." I used the tissue he handed me and started to wipe up my tears and took a deep clear look at the person who was standing in front of me. Fade looked at me with a confused look and asked "Is there something wrong Yumi?" I didn't took the time to think, i just dived right into Fades arms and felt his warmness once again. "Your finally back Fade!" Fade let out a laugh and said in a really low voice "I know, I'm finally home." The night was quiet and cold, with no warmness or sunlight in site. In my mind, Fade was my warmness Fade was my light, Fade was the one i loved and missed so much. Welcome home Fade! you stupid idiot!
The Poem
I'm always wondering day and night
when will you return back to me again?
when will you give me a phone call again?
when will your feelings come and touch my heart again?
these feeling without you are cold
these wet tears are left without any meaning
this quiet world without your care and dreams
this dry tissue paper with no feeling or emotion
how long must i have to wait for your return Fade?
how long must i keep going out with Jerry?
until you come back and save me?
i miss you so much Fade!
so please return back to me again
cause you are my one and only "Fade"
the only idiot that always knows a way to make me cry
the only idiot that I'll always like and care about
and these feelings i have for you
will never fade away like any simple feeling
it's because i miss you so much
and i love you!!
