Memories

The pain hurts so bad
the sadness flows sown my face
my never ending river of tears
living through memories as if they are still in motion
fear lives inside my heart,
i do not know how to set them apart from life
things that i do, things that i say
the commotion still rings through my head
i lie in bed thinking about my life
how i have lived, how i am going to live
am i constantly going to relive the stinging memories of my past
or am i going to set out and make some happy ones on my own