I Hope

Is this MY LIFE anymore?
Seems like I've been locked behind this door...

And nobody can hear me on the other side,
It won't seem to open no matter how hard I've tried...

I use to live life with a smile on my face,
I was so happy to be here in this place!

And you were the one getting me through the day,
You were the one making me believe I was OK...

And did you know that when you walked OUT of my life...
You forgot to take with you your knife?

You know, the one that cut my world in two,
All because I put all my trust in you!

I was so lost in the world I was living in,
Then you came to diminish all of my sin...

YOU told me that you will always be there,
That no matter what, YOU will always care...

Everything will be fine, i promise you, it will,
That hole in your life, i will finally fill!

I believed everything you said to me,
You were a role model that i was wanting...

And for NO GOD DAMN REASON AT ALL,
You just walked away and let me fall...

How could you have a heart to do that to someone?
To just walk away and let everything come undone?

So tell me what you do when I happen to cross your mind...
Do you just close your eyes and let me pass by?

I hope you know you're the reason for many of my tears,
You should feel accomplished now for a couple of years...

Because you built me up and changed my horrible ways,
You should be honored to know that everybody knows you are just a phase...

You should be proud that you tore me back down,
Be happy that you're not around...

I wish the best for you, but only with suffering pain,
I wish that you get what you work for AFTER going insane!

I wish that you'll live my world war three,
I wish that you'll suffer this disappointment painfully...

I don't wish bad for anybody, not even you...
Even after the sadness you put me through...

So I'll wish that you get put to a test,
To get what you want in life at it's best...

I know it sounds evil, but hey, aren't we all?
I guess SOME OF US are just too close to call...