I don't want it

by Kelsey   Jun 13, 2007


I don't want it to hurt
I don't want the tears to fall down
I don't want the heart shattering pain to come..

what if it doesn't stop hurting
what if it goes to far
what if i start to cut again because it hurts to much

I've stopped myself from feeling
I've stopped myself from caring
I've stopped everything

i don't sleep anymore
i don't eat
But yet i feel so fine

I don't want it to hurt
I loved her so much
I loved her with everything i had

she died while i held her hands
she died while she was in ICU
She died thinking i would cry
she died thinking that i would care

but i don't care
or i think i don't
i haven't cried
and i haven't yelled
i just don't care

she told me not to be afraid to love
I'm not afraid to love
I'm afraid to care

i don't want to cry
i don't want to care
i don't want to hurt

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Latest Comments

  • 17 years ago

    by Kelsey

    It's was a confuseing time for me so my writeing doesnt really make since in that time

  • 17 years ago

    by Liz

    How can u not be afriad to love
    but b afraid 2 care?
    love is caring?
    i'm afraid 2 love
    but not afraid to care

  • 17 years ago

    by CHOKE

    No one ever wants to hurt or cry
    but it happens to every one of us.
    good luck with life

  • 17 years ago

    by Dustins Gurl

    Keep up the good work

  • 17 years ago

    by SADADDY

    The expressions of your feelings well come one day and it will to pass. The sense of loss is felt in your write until the end. Thank you for sharing these thoughts with us during your trying times of loss. May you one day find the peace and joy you seek within your heart once again.

    sadaddy

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