What a life, lost my most important family member
3 months before I got to see them, which would have been in December
My grandfather I love you, why did your heart have to go into cardiac arrest
There was so much you had to teach, that I never had the chance to learn yet
I kind of neglected your teachings at first but after I left
I thought about how I was living and wanted to warm the cold heart in my chest
And now its too late, but your spirit was still here to help me find the strength
To change who I was into a new person and live to see better day
Thank you and Ill see you when I get home to live in the sky
For now Im smiling for you on earth knowing you would not want me to cry
And Im a keep your legacy alive and try as best I can to live my biggest dreams
As hard as things may seem Ill make it, regardless of what pains may intervene
What a life, things were going well but than I got a call
That left me numb for a moment suddenly tears began to fall
One of my best friends has past away and I cant believe it
I hear the words but the information my brain isnt receiving
I just talked to her about a month ago and she seemed fine
Im confused extremely as to why she would commit suicide
She was always happy when we talked but than again
She was picked on a lot at school, and ditched by a lot of her friends
And she tried it once before but she told me it was because
She was intoxicated and high off a couple other drugs
I told her how I felt about that and she made a promise to me
That she would not do this again, and I believed her truly,
But she broke that promise and now I got mixed emotions
Im sad and Im mad, why she leave me, I cant even cope with
These facts, and now I got this big hole right in the middle of my heart
As she departed that night I felt myself fall apart
Even though at first I did not know the reason I still felt something was wrong
Than I found out that you were found dead in the back of your house,
Hanging from a rope, no note so we dont know what this was about,
If only we could of talked than I could of found out,
You were planning on doing this and stop your plan from carrying out,
But I never even called for a while just to ask about her day
And I kind of blame myself, cause I could of made her smile with the loving words that I say,
But I made the bad choice not to, and now Ill never get another chance
To hear her voice, and feel her touch, or hear her joyful laugh
But Im going to stay strong and smile for you as much as it hurts
May your soul live free, and your body rest in peace inside of the earth
I see you shining in the sky blooming as a star
A beautiful sky flower living far but when I need you here you are
In a spiritual outer form, guiding me in the right direction
I see you in my dreams, and feel you being my protection
You lived a great life for the time that you were here
Things may never be the same and I may shed many tears
But theres no longer any fear or pain that seemed severe
Your in heaven living free where all chaos disappears
And I will always remember you and put nothing above you
I will miss you dearly but most importantly always love you
