Should i stay or should i go?

There's a new life out there waiting for me,
my mom says just wait and see
I really want to go,
but somethings pulling me back,
i think its you and thats a fact.
The way you look at me with those green eyes,
just makes me feel like i have butterflies.
They way you touch me and grab my hand,
makes me never want to leave or let go of you again.
Should i stay or should i go?
Its not up to me,
not anymore.
My heart is taking over,
and that i cant control.
My feelings for you are growing so cold.
Numbness is taking over my body,
in which i can not feel,
what is right and what is real.
I wish someone could tell me whats inside,
what i feel, and what i strive.
I feel for you but strive for more,
and that is something that i cant ignore.
I'll miss the way you talk to me
and always call my name.
I'll miss the way to looked at me,
and how you'd always make me smile,
and that is something i will always remember,
not just for a while.
I'll miss the way you make me laugh,
and how i almost thought i had a heart-attack.
But most of all,
I'll miss you
and that is something that is so damn true.
But now im moving,
and that is something that i must do.
I waited so long for you to finally care,
but you're a little too late,
because i wont be here.
But even though...
you'll always have a place in my heart.
Even when or if we do grow apart.
But i hope we don't because your my friend,
and i'll be there for you till the very end.
I hope you think of me from time to time,
kind of as if i was a shrine.
Something to look back on,
of time of laughter, happiness and a not so happily ever after,
I don't think you realized how much i really did care.
I might not have shown it,
but just know it for sure was there.
You were the shine to my sun,
the green to my grass,
and just to let you know....
the pain in my ass. :p
Good times were there,
and there's more to come,
just because the old ones are in the past,
does not mean that they will be forgotten.
There's never a right time to say goodbye,
but i guess ill say it now
But i know i'll see you again,
someway, someday, somehow.