Suicide -N-o-t-e- Poem

Head is throbbing
My tears are robbing
My eyes
I can't take the lies

It's all too much
And no one gives a f#ck
No ones there to listen to me
But its my blood that they will see

I've been told I need a shrinkg
But I just seem to think
My friends should be there
To help me with a quick repair

I keep to myself mostly
Because when I don't its usually costly
You never saw me cry
Maybe because you never try...

To see my cries
My prayers
of some help
Someone hear my yells!

I've screamed I've cried I've yelled
Yet I am never questioned about these little spells
No one was there for me
No one will would open there eyes and see

That the friend they always shared
Was far to sad
She died that night
Unnoticed untill the morning light

I lay in a pool of my own blood
An empty bottle of pills and a razor lay too
Now they wonder why I did what has been done
I laugh floating above

"Your fault!" I scream
Now the tears come
I laugh bitterly at the new theme
How could they have been so dumb

I wrote this simple poem
Because I thought- "Hey.... maybe I owe 'em...
the truth long before....
I lay there on the floor..."

You read this and week
Look at me as I take my last "Sleep"
I am never waking up
You did it before- how about you all shut up?!

I'm gone
My song
Has been sung
As the bells at the church are rung

Maybe to remember me?
Most likely for a wedding
Hugs and kisses good bye to you all
Soon I will take my final fall