My love

I sit in my existence
my head noisy with thoughts
thinking about everything
no escape to resort

so hard to forget
about my first love
his beautiful eyes
his heart a dove

i wish we could be true to each other
i wish we could fly
together alone
away from questioning eyes

no one feels the same
dangerous to speak these words
but you know how i feel
a thousand times you've heard

when i drift off to sleep
i turn to cuddle you
but you aren't there anymore
no love returned to

i know i shouldn't do this
harmful for us both
but i can't get you out of my mind
holding on to every hope

your love is like a vine
poisonous to my viens
addiction to the core
and i can't walk away

i try to turn my cheek
but then i feel your hand on it
every dark corner
suddenly becomes lit

my heart jumps a pace
then settles back down
it's only my mind tricking
false touch, false sound

why does it torment me?
i can't figure out why
what makes me love you
when i look into your eyes

you'll always be apart of me
even if times passes by
I'll think of you everyday
until the day comes when i die

how can i forget
when i close my eyes
i can feel your touch
though the hurt pierces like knifes

your scent so sweet to smell
your lips so soft to kiss
your touch so powerful to feel
slowly up my bodice

i melt in your arms
only you in my heart
the light still shines
only now surrounded by dark

will we ever be again
i don't know anymore
i try to keep away from you
but i always finish back at your door

no one has the answer for me
a one man battle fought
and when my body falls
from whom will it have support

the love i have for you
runs deep inside of me
it crushes every breath
every time you leave

my throat begins to swell
i refuse to let go
but you're stronger than i am
you can speak the word "no"

it runs through every vein
through my lungs and my heart
ends at my finger tips
and goes right back to where it starts

i wake up thinking of you
the same for when i sleep
all i want from this
is your heart to keep

sometimes i wish it were a dream
so I'd have you by my side
so we could be together
and again we could try

i know it has been ruined
too many lies and deceit
this loneliness takes a toll on me
nearly ready to take defeat

how much longer will i wait
forever i don't care
just as long as one day
our love again we share