Three years pass as I grow closer and closer to you.
Everytime your around my heart races, and im quiet, I dont know what to do.
I have shown my love for you in so many ways.
Into your eyes I would gaze.
But it hurt me that you didnt realize how I felt.
When I'm around you my heart starts to melt.
Until the day I got up the nerve to write you, and tell you of my feelings, because it was something I could no-longer hide.
But when I read your response, it killed me inside.
Stating you once wanted to be with me, until feelings for another started to appear.
The next thing I felt was a warm, salty tear.
I thought if I let it go for a while you would realize how perfect we are for eachother.
I've never felt this way for another.
I got the heart to ask you out, I gave you the letter.
I thought if you knew every single detail it would work out better.
But when days went by, and weeks, I began to feel alone.
I tried to call your phone.
The worst day of my life was yet to come.
When my heart was shattered to kingdom come.
Sitting there talking to your sister, and she let out a secret that should've been told.
About your brand new girlfriend, my life began to fold.
I walked away as you walked to the porch, and watched we pace up and down the sidewalk.
You come to me asking to talk.
I blankly stare at the ground, so you couldn't see.
Until you broke down and asked, "Olivia look at me."
Tears rolling, eyes bloodshot, I was in so much pain.
My tears pouring like rain.
You tell me your sorry, and not to cry.
The first thing out of my mouth is why?
I start to ramble on about how much I love you.
And about how I didnt know what I was about to do.
You ask me if I want you to come over later to talk.
I say yes, you give me a hug, and I begin to walk.
Once in my home I grab the alcohol, and the cigarettes, and begin to take my pain away.
All my friends stop by to make sure I'm okay.
When you come over, im drunk and you know exactly why.
I no longer would cry.
My pain was healed for that little amount of time...and im sitting on the floor.
You say not one word, and walk out the door.
Later that week I ask why you said nothing to me, what did I do?
And your words were you were drunk, and werent you.
You were so sorry, but that doesnt help what I feel inside.
But my love for you I no longer have to hide.
You say dating will ruin our friendship.
But being friends help a relationship.
I'm sorry you dont understand that, I cant help you.
I have to help myself just to get through.
I'll love you forever and always.
Just be friends throughout all these days.
But one day, hopefully you'll see.
That that woman that will always be there...is me.
