Do remember when i came to your house on spring break with my cousins? when i saw u i thought u were cute, but u were still just another guy. as i stayed at your house u went from being a cute guy to a crush. i didn't think nothing of it, i had many crushes some stayed..most faded away. plus i was still hurting, i didn't think i could trust another guy again. that was where it all began.
Do u remember when we first talked on the phone. my cousin told me that u wanted me to call u. so i did. we didn't talk for long but those couple of minutes made my heart beat so fast and released butterflies into my stomach. knowing that u actually knew that i existed made me feel like the happiest girl in the world.
Do u remember when u came to Vancouver on my birthday? those couple of weeks that u stayed at my cousins she was always telling me that your going crazy for me and would never hurt me. u were always calling me asking me if i could hangout. the whole time i was trying to be careful. what if u weren't telling the truth ? what if i believed u and then get hurt again? as much as i tried not to fall for u it didn't work. i fell for u! fast and hard. i fell in love with u
Do u remember when i came over to my cousins House and we sat around the fire? we stayed up the whole night sitting in a group around the warm flaming fire. once most people left u asked me to massage your hand. i did, only it wasn't how i usually massaged peoples hands. i rubbed your soft, warm welcoming hand and twined my fingers with your. holding your hand as well as massaging it. though we were only holding hands that was a magical moment for me and i will never forget it
do u remember the day after u left? u emailed me and told me to call u and once again i did. after that we talked on the phone all the time. first it was a couple of days a week until it became everyday. u called everyday sometime after 9 and we talked until 12 and sometimes later. the whole day i waited until 9 o'clock and every time it rang i would jump up hoping it was u and every time i heard your rich voice my heart soared.
Do u rememberer when we both went to California in the beginning of the summer? we would hang out at the beach. once everyone would leave to swim we would hold hands and lay ed close to each other. u twirled my hair and told me u loved me. i looked into your deep blue eyes and answered in honesty that i loved u too. when we drove to my cousins house where i stayed we held hands the whole time. when we were almost there u leaned over, told me u loved me and kissed my cheek catching a lot of my hair. that was the last time i saw u for months. next time we saw each other everything was different.
Do u remember the long talks on the phone? we talked the whole summer long and toward the end u called less and less. i asked u about it and u just said that u were working a lot and were to tired. i said i believed u and i thought i did but my heart knew something was wrong. that was the last time we ever talked and said we loved each other. later i found out that u started drinking again. u knew that i couldn't be with someone that drank. i told u before that if i caught u drinking i would leave u. instead u left me
Do u remember when u called and confessed? it was a month after your last call. i yelled at u and broke down. u came to Vancouver a week later and avoided me like i was a disease like i was going to kill u. it hurt me so bad. why does my heart keep leading me places where i don't belong? why cant i t stay in one place until the right guy comes along? thought u are gone now, my life goes on and though i am still hurting with Gods help. i will survive.
