That's When

Can someone show me where to go...
The right path I guess I'll never know...

Once I get going, I always get sidetracked,
And i can't ever seem to find my way back...

Everything now feels like it's failing inside,
I can't count the number of days I've cried...

I keep trying to smile once again,
But I can't get going on without my best friend...

I'd do anything just to SAY i love you again,
I'd give everything to make this sadness end...

You made me so happy, you made life feel complete,
You gave me butterflies and my heart skip a beat...

I can't stand talking to a tombstone anymore,
Because it will never be like it was before!

I'm telling a marble stone how much I miss you,
I'm screaming to myself that this CANNOT be true...

You're young, there's no possible freaking way,
That God is ALLOWED to take you today...

But he did and how can they say that life is fair?
How can it if you aren't ever going to be there!

It's NOT fair because everyday, i think about you!
And i remember all of the memories we made it through...

And I fall down because I realize that you're gone,
And I cry because i know that this is so damn wrong!

I have to graduate without you by my side,
I have to grow older and not have you to confide!

I cry myself to sleep because i know that this time, There's nothing I can do...
Nothing i can do, say, or make will EVER bring back you!

And I'm so miserable, I'm so sad all of the time,
You're life was taken away... so was mine!

God and the angels took you away from me...
How in the hell do they expect me to be happy...

And I understand that life is going to be temporary,
But never in my life did i ever want you to leave!

To stand with your family the day of your funeral,
Is a scar that comes back to me and it soon will...

To bury your first love and still love him to death,
Kills you inside and takes your every breath...

So when I daze off and I start to cry,
It's not because your gone or you had to die...

It's because I still have the memories of you and me,
And whatever happens is meant to be...

And I know you're waiting for me, I know you are...
Here or there... you are... no matter how far!

And I'm waiting too for my time to come,
When you and me become one...

And that will be the best day of my life,
That's when everything will play out right...

*For Matt Stutzcavage: I miss you so much. I cry and get SO frustrated to realize that you were the best relationship I ever had and most likely will have. It's no fair that I cannot spend my life with you - i'm going to spend it alone. I have so much love for you and now you're not here. I would give my life just to tell you how much I love you. I know you're with me but it's the fact that I can't tell you I love you. I miss you like crazy!