With eyes closed

I painted my summer with winter white
But Im really fine
I just didnt know where to go
Tomorrow Ill wake up
Without this rope around my throat
And youll be pretending im already dead
Cuz theres no possible way you could forget

I covered my crystal clear eyes with cloudy smoke
So I wont cry
My eyes are too dry
I didnt know what else to do
But pack it all up and get away from you
Tonight Ill fall asleep
Without being woken by my own screams
And you'll be gone before I wake again
Cuz now theres nowhere to be going

You dont understand
I dont need your hand
That was all just playing pretend
I lied too, but it was all different then
You dont need to run
Im completly done chasing you
It was never right
Im sure that Im fine
So go ahead and walk far
Before you find my scars
Its not our fault, it had to happen
But now its only ok, if you keep on running