There is this thing about you,
that makes my insides tingle,
but at the same time,
it causes my heart to break.
You are one of thee nicest guys ever,
you are dating one of the most popular girls,
she is nice,
smart,
sweet,
&& skinny.
I would ask what makes her so different then me,
but I just answer it,
she has two of those things,
I don't have,
but the one,
is the most important to any guy,
she is skinny.
It is hard enough going through life knowing,
I am the fat girl in the room,
it is hard enough knowing,
I am never gonna get a boyfriend,
who can just pick me up,
&& swing me,
it is hard enough knowing,
do you really have to rub it in my face?
I look at you two,
&& all I can think is,
"What I would to do be her."
but always looking,
but never actually there.
It is the way,
you kiss her on the for-head,
&& wrap your arms around her,
that gets my heart aching,
thinking about what we could have been,
if I would have given it a shot.
It is everything about you,
your charm,
the way you can always make me laugh,
even if all I want to do is cry,
the way you can get everything out,
even if I didn't want to say it in the first place,
the way you make me feel,
like you are only talking to me,
&& I am the only person you want,
just until you mention her.
It is not that I am jealous,
it is not that I am angry,
it is not that I am sad,
it kinda is,
love.
