Not just yet

This screaming wish
This fading voice
This tainted heart

Its all I have become
I am silent in the shadows
The spotlight shines and I crawl back

I scream my wish to the clouds
But my voice is overpowered by my shattering heart

Is this my fate?
To never win the battles I face?

Something is crawling inside
Wanting to break free

But when?
But how?

I don't think its a good idea
I cannot change just yet
For my eyes have set
I will not stray from my path
No
Not just yet

I will sit
I will hide
I am afraid of the light

I don't want to breathe
I like hiding

I will not float above the surface
No
Not just yet
For my eyes have set