Apology

You apologized to me
In the later years
I said I for gave you for leaving
Still have this fear

Getting close
Like when I was young
You shutting me out
I can not deal with that again

The pain is still there
That I tried to ignore
It hurts to know
We are not close anymore

A wife and mother
You played out so well
Till you left my dad
Then it was Hell

There were the five of us now
In the same house
Very sad and confused
What were we to do?

Everyone who knew
Some supportive, some flew
Could not understand
Why you did not take your babys hand??

The youngest of four
Watched you walk out the door
Had no clue why you left
Still a mystery at best

My dad fell in love
With a woman named Polly
He was so happy to be with her
They even got married

She had an instant family
Four daughters right there
Even six grandkids
She needed a chair!

She loved us all
No matter what
Gave us hugs
And fed us well

She made me feel special
When I was near
Even lived with them
For a year

Many years went by
Then her dad had died
She lost it after that
Saying all kinds of lies

My dad shared the news
Polly was leaving him for good
Like my mom did to him twice
Dad did not have a choice

She knew the whole story
From the time mom left
Assured me she would not leave
That is what she said

Another lie I had to hear
I never heard from her again
She broke my heart
I shed some tears

Why do I trust all these years?