Life is what it is

Hard times,fake smiles,long nights,cover up tears,scars up my wrist,make-up does the trick,blood stains on my carpet,won't come out,some things you can't cover up,whats wrong you ask,i say nothing,but in my own words mean everything,mascara tears,perfume hearts,this may mean nothing to you but everything to me!!!!! my life is nothing but a horror story that never ends but through my eyes seems like a good day at least better than than the last!! call me Gothic,call me suicidal,call me whatever it won't matter! everyday seems like the last how come death is so close but at the same time so far away???