Strength (187)

When you left me
I felt so dead
I though this was fake
All in my head.

But at that time
I truly awoke
To the way you used me
The way I couldn't see past the smoke.

I was blind, at your mercy
Thinking it was love, the way you feel
How stupid of me, I couldn't see
Thinking your lies were real.

You lied to me, to everything I knew
And you can't take it back
Because when you rejected me
I felt my heart crack.

I was beyond anger
Even beyond sadness and misery
I was on the edge
Of a lossful insanity.

I truly know you've left me
Because of this painful ache
In my heart
Why was it my will to live that you had to take?

I'm in a dark void
Escaping painful reality
Away from the lights of speeding cars
Trying to regain hold of my sanity.

Hurting visions of you being happy
Upon my mind are thrust
I don't understand what's happening
Where is our long lost trust?

I try to flush out memories
All concerning you
I try to escape the fear
That overwhelms me too.

I try to concentrate
On nothing to paining
I know I can't escape
The essence of your presence and truthfulness is waning.

Why do you thrust
The burden of pain
Always upon only me?
Oh what will it gain?

I used to love you
But with everything that's going on
That love is vanishing
With my will, my strength to be strong.

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