Dead

Smile was taken away from me
when life adopted misery
nonsense for a heart so empty
tired living conscientiously

tears fell but never gone
be still and strong not to run
for I am kneeling deeply in the sand
weary trying myself to stand

feels like stuck in a room
cant say that now is the soon
numb to the truth that looms
but afraid to witness doom

wished all will be just a dream
wished this dream be like a sin
that would can be gratify from dim
vanish the fears and life begins