Sick of all the pain

I'm sick of all the pain
I'm sick of all the lies
I'm sick of all the smiling
When I'm dyeing inside
I want to break free
I want to let go
I could stay like this forever
And you wouldn't even know

Cover up the pain with a smile
The emotion just builds up inside
You wouldn't understand
You wouldn't want to know
Because of your ignorance
I've learned not to let it show
Your so narrow minded
Scared of anything thats new
But did you ever stop to think
That I might need you too?

I don't want to pretend
I don't want to lie
I cant go on like this
I just want to die
I cant stand feeling this way
When I cant even cry
What have I done
I've messed up my life
Theres no going back
Its for good this time