Almost day 5

So here i go again,
writing another....
still not eating...
its scaring my mother.
passing the fridge..i take a peak..
but instead i grab a water...i'm growing weak.
i can feel the bones in my throat..
my voice is getting raspy...
every thought of hunger is telling me
"no food is just nasty"
i have a feeling that things may get bad..
but i hope to god..that mom wont tell dad.
im wondering if im even losing weight
i can't beleive im doing this..just to have a shape.
i got to stay strong, even though i want to cry.
my god..its almost day 5.