My Daily Battle

Sugar and spice,
And everything nice,
If only that were true,
None of this is in my life.

My life isn't like that,
Not like that at all,
My life is hard to explain,
But I have one golden rule.

To pretend my life is fine,
Pretend that everything is alright,
Pretend that I don't have any weaknesses,
Pretend that I don't have to fight.

Fight everyday,
To wake up and live my life,
To go to work and smile,
To pretend I've never wanted to end it all with a knife.

I give everyone what they want,
All the happiness I have inside,
The little bit I use,
When ever I can't hide.

People take it from me,
They treat me like shit,
They shatter me to pieces,
Pieces that no longer fit.

This is my life,
My own personal hell,
But people think i'm fine,
They think they know me well.

I know different,
Because I live it every day,
I live the pain, fear, regret,
I live it all every day.