A girl with emotion

She needs to cry
tears fill her eyes
she doesn't know why
why she must feel like this
why she must be soo weak

....

through her young years
she was called a blond
who care if your hair is blond
it doesn't mean you are stupid

why did he call her dumb
when she didn't understand something you ask
when she didn't hear what you said
when she didn't do something the way you wanted it done

she grew up
tried of the names
she used her energy
just to try
to understand
to hear commands
to do something right

that is when she grew
her mind was sleepless
her body was faint

years passed by
those names stopped
and others began

being called fat each day
getting told you can loose more weight
it hurts her heart
because she knows
what everyone is telling her
is true

so she tries to change once again
going running every morning
smoking pot
eating less
throwing up

still...

she feels sleepy

she gets old enough to go to high school
those names stop
but more problems being
she gets call emo and
gothic

why did those cuts start those names
they were suppose to help her

so once again she has to change
she changes to a happy girl
full of smiles and laughs

who knows the next time
she will have to change
be someone who isn't her

she doesn't know her real self anymore
she doesn't know her real emotions

she lets everyone control her life
and she wants to make everyone happy

soo..

here she is...

she needs to cry
tears fill her eyes
she doesn't know why
why she must feel like this
why she must be soo weak