Back in my life

**3 years later..still in love!!**

dreams eating me alive
Because I know they will never come true
Never will they really happen
Because I will never be loved by you

We had our time together
And it was the best ever
But you left me so cold and alone
Now we are both on our own

3 years down this hard road
You still taunt my every thought
I have gained nothing
But I have learned a lot

I close my eyes
And see your beautiful blues
Trying not to open them
It will ruin the moment so true

I take a deep breath in
To get a whiff of the warm air
Bring memories back
Of the scent in your curly hair

I watch sunsets here and there
To remind me of your amazing face
The sunlight guides me to you
Warmth and an embrace

I write these poems daily
To make me feel secure
feel like you are next to me again
Sometimes its the perfect cure

I hate not having you anymore
For you were my all
But im getting adapted to the pain
Making it easier for each fall

I am begging god each night
Please just put him back in my life
I hate missing him this much
I cant stand this constant strife