Am i allowed?

Tainted and shattered,
I'm torn apart.
I should have known,
From the very start.

Empty and lost,
I'm crying now.
I still really love you,
Am i allowed?

Broken and hurt,
I'm dead inside.
I continue to hold on,
To a hurtful lie.

Sick and tired,
Just kill me now.
I'll always love you,
Am i allowed?

Lonely and scared,
I'm lying here.
Don't walk away,
It's my biggest fear.

Just break me down,
Hurt me more.
I'll wear that frown,
Like you told me before.

Sore but happy,
You're leaving now.
This is goodbye forever,
That I allowed.

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