For so long I've been crying endless tears, these tears have no purpose to run down my rosy cheeks so why do they? I was once so happy and cheerful, so what happened to me? What caused me to be so sad ? Is it a feeling I have put behind me and forgotten or is it something that I have forgotten all together. In this body beats a heart, a delicate heart so fragile yet so strong, This heart tells me your living a lie, you use to be a happy person always smiling and laughing, bringing joy to everyone around you. I start to cry listening to this, and wonder if that girl is still inside me, and if she will ever come out again. My heart also tells me there's a shadow lingering over what use to be me and it's not letting up like a slow moving storm, that scares a little girl every time it thunders. I miss that girl, that happy little girl is fading away slowly with each passing day. But even though I'm not that little girl anymore, I still feel connected to her, but only when I'm with a certain person. I lay in my bed thinking... What keeps me going everyday ? Why have I not ended my life, or for that matter what keeps me from ending my life? When I was that little girl I use to bring joy to everyone, but now all I bring is darkness and pity to everyone around me. They try to make me feel better but no matter what they do no one will understand me not even myself will understand me. My heart is right I'm living a lie, I'm not me...I don't even know who I am anymore. When I go to bed, before I close my eyes to drift into my fantasy land, I pray to God and tell him please bring that little girl back, that little girl that was so happy, that little girl who is me.
