Friends

I thought we were friends
but know I wonder
if we are friends
shouldn't you be at my side
and hold your head high
because you're proud to be my friend
your heart should be filled with pride
I can't believe I let this get so far
without ever saying what I felt
you always say I can't shut up
that I need to think more about what I say
but yet I never said that you hurt me with your ways
you say I'm special but that's only when you need
I always stand by you
I'm there to reach out a helping hand
but you're never there
I'm sitting here talking to you
and you still don't see
I'm suffering in silence
trying not to cry
because you won't understand why
I realize now we are still friends
but you'll never really understand
that I sit here in the dark
crying my tears of whom you'll never see the mark