Are you proud of me?

Dad,,

I don't no why you left
And I don't know what I did last
But I no I miss you
We would do anything to have you here
In the end it doesn't matter how much I write
Your not coming back
I hate that
Are you proud of me?

I haven't washed the car
Because we were suppose to do it
I am barley home
Because your the one I'm suppose to talk to
I look like a fool
Because it is you I wait for after school
I forget that I am walking now

Dad without you here you changed our lives
There is so much anger
We were a perfect happy family
Till you turned it around and wanted out

I would give you my heart and soul
How is Kieth and Cheryl?
How is Peter and Nanny?
I guess I won't no
Until I see you again
I hate thinking about waiting to see you
Why cant I see you tomorrow

I run home ready to tell you
"Look dad I did something stupid today"
"Dad I got really drunk for the first time"
These were the times I needed your words..
Your advise and I don't know what it would have been
That would have been fine but i didn't even get that
So silence fills my world..
A smile for the world
As deep town i tear myself apart without you here
xoxox
I Love You Dad