Something I Cant Have

I don't expect you to understand.
Nor do I want you to.
Perhaps feelings this way is my burden.
To not tell you, would just hurt me.

I never expected to feel this way.
I hope the feeling is mutual.
If not, then this is wasted breathe.
I've been watching her with you.

I can tell you it hurts.
I see the way she looks at me.
I believe she knows what I feel.
The way I look at you is a give away.

I've tried to push this problem back.
But whats the point, it just comes on back.
If only i could be as close to you as she.
I never spoke these words to you before.

I want you to look at me like that.
I want you nearer to me.
I want those vital words to ring my ears.
I want that of what I have wanted forever.
Lucas ...