Confused

Im so confused,
I just dont get you.
Your thoughts and feelings,
Nothing ever makes since to me.
Maybe Im just thinking to far,
Maybe I should just admire from afar.
You continue to say you love me,
But for some reason I find that hard to believe.
Because I know youre always thinking of her,
I thought your were in love with me, but you never really were.
Everything you misled me to believe,
Gaining my heart back is going to be hard to achieve.
Especially without you in my life,
Whats worth living when Id rather die?