Rest

I was wandering through darkness
No light was shining on my way
I was lost, lonely and confused
And every step I made I prayed
For guidance and for help
For love and sympathy
For comfort and understanding
For someone to walk with me
But silence was the only answer
And I started to believe
Maybe solitude was my destiny
And maybe I am meant to grieve
I was struggling to accept
A fate that seemed so cruel
And I was looking for a way
A way to make it through
My faith, my hopes, my dreams
Were drafting from my sight
And all I could think of
Was making it through the night
Through the piercing, icy coldness
Through desolation by my own
Trying to accept that I
Will always be alone
Even with company
And all that I receive
I still felt lost and lonely
Sometimes I'm just not glad to live
I asked God for an answer
To the question of my existence
For my earthly mortal presence
Didn't make any sense
But His only answer was
To keep me healthy and alive
While all I wished for was
Just to lay down and die
I never could find out
The actual reason why
Every day I feel
The way I feel inside
All I know is that
I can't find peace and sanity
Until the day I will
Rest for eternity.