The Uncertainty of Hope

Ragged shoes return to the road
naught has changed to lessen the load
each long stride is harder than the last
no distance eases the weight of the past

six months gone, and now you call out my name
defenseless and naked, I acknowledge your claim
but your words may do more harm than good
as you stand at the place where my wall once stood

our renewed conversations lay heavy on my mind
as they awaken a hope I left far behind
those dangerous thoughts, I buried in disgrace
Yet, once again now, I yearn for your embrace

I fear to expose a wound I've cradled for so long
my judgment fails me when I hear your frail song
your intentions are unclear and cause me to pace
you might only wish to ease the passing of my face

so once again I stumble and collapse in despair
this uncertainty may be, more than I can bear
do I choose to pursue her or rebuild my wall?
If only she were honest, it might spare me the fall

So your words have forced my return to the road
but my gait is unsteady and my pace has slowed
each time we talk is harder than the last
for it seems the warmth in your voice has passed