The final judgement

In this dark hour,
I am left alone.
My soul plundered,
my heart turned to stone.
Guilt and anger,
agony and pain.
Only this will remain.

I cannot see,
I cannot breathe.
Every second of my life,
I just want to leave.
She has a new love,
I was thrown away.
Because of my anger I say:

No matter what,
no matter how.
I'll get back to you somehow.
Not to love you,
or to treat you good.
I know it can't be understood.

Now I want to disappear,
ever again from you nothing hear.
My life converted into one big fear.
I simply cannot hide that tear...

Two facts, and one wish remain:
sleepless nights,
endless fights,
no more lights...