Through this darkness

I'm walking through darkness
the darkness you left
in my head and heart
the way is difficult to see
without you

how can I get out of this labyrinth
without a destination?
without a map to guide me?
without someone to lead me?

I hear the silence next to me
I can only hear my heart beating
myself breathing
it makes me feel alive

did you ever feel alive?
did you want her to become your wife?
why did you have to end your life?

questions and questions
waiting for an answer
but the dust coming up through this darkness
lets me get faithless

I don't believe in heaven since I'm living in hell
but I just can hope there's some kind of heaven
anywhere
where you are