My hearts pounding & my head is torturing itself .
I try so hard to keep my head up high , but I've realize I can't do it myself .
Ive turned my back on god , & it seems the world has turned it's back on me .
No one knows how I feel inside , if they did they'd call me crazy .
No one knows this pain inside , cutting deeper and deeper into my soul it bleeds .
emptiness & hatred is all I have it seems...
These thoughts pour out , as I stumble over how to put it into words .
Knowing I even have these thoughts make it worse...
I met him 4 months ago to the day..I loved him & now he's gone..
Have you ever had someone be mad at you for your emotions ? "how can you love him ?"
How can I not...?
I smile & laugh ,
But as I hear their advice , my heart cracks .
They took him away .
As I'm left in pain .
He was the only part of myself I didn't hate...
Thanks for making my heart decay......
