Opened seams

Ive gone too deep
Somebody better stop me
Im scared of myself
I dont wanna go to hell
To see him there
The pain gives me a piece of hope
It shows me that Im still holding onto the rope
It tells me Im alive enough to feel
But numb enough to bleed
Alive enough to breath
But dead enough not to see
That the exit is right in front of me
But Ive dug the hole too deep
To sew up these opened seams
Help me sew them
I dont wanna continue to bleed
He was supposed to save me