I miss her
sometimes i miss her so much that i wish i was an old woman with Alzheimer's...
just so that i could simply forget.
at night i think about her
and what a huge mistake i made
that one mistake
that's slowing eating away my on my life
that one that destructs my dreams at night
yes,
that one
i wish that it could all just go away
the memories of so many yesterdays
the small whispers of "i love you"
which now turn into "i hate you"
it's funny how three little words and completely destroy a person's heart.
how can they cause so much pain?
that is what i wonder at night
as i lay there in the darkness on many sleepless nights
it'll never be right again
how did i dig myself such a deep hole?
when i knew...
that there was a chance that no one would be there to lend me a helping hand in the end
why did i just have to assume that i would get another chance?
and why did i have to be so heartbreakingly wrong this time?
but alas
i'm going to hold back my tears
watch the memories go up in flames
and i'm going to stop dreaming of all the use to be's and get on with my life
and in the end...
i'm gonna pick up the pieces of my heart
and pray to god that one day they will mend back together
