Reality

I sit here alone,dreaming of joy
Waiting for the day I might find it

My thoughts are vague
My mind is void
For my head is full of fog
It clouds me 'til I see nothing

I drift off to gentle slumber
As I play in my little heaven
I realize how sad it is
To wake up in reality

All it is is sweet pain and sorrow
But one can find no cure

I've lived a lie all my life
It just became too easy
To walk around and have no fear
Not wond'ring where it may lead you

I've had no guide, no hand to hold
So I know not what good is

What I do is fine with me
Long as I am happy

The world around me seems to change
Have I been left behind?

I learn much more than I should know
It may lead to my fall
But if I do, i would be glad
For I'd know I' not perfect

In life we trip
and toss
and turn
and may succumb to weakness

These may be harsh
But I hope you find
They all are for the better
And can be turned to an advantage

A new day comes to give us hope
And make up for what we've lost
To right a wrong or fix our lives
But that would seem too selfish

So we live our lives this very day
Just to take whatever's thrown
We've all learned how to adapt
Yet the world around us stays the same

All the changes everywhere
All the people walking round
Everything that has become
It's only us who are to blame

I 'come awake
Dazed and confused
Staring at the cloudless sky
Recalling the thoughts
From my sub-conscious
And all that has conspired

Doubt seeps in about my life
Through all the joy
Through all the pain
Was this really meant to be

I ask myself and then you:
Is this reality?