He said sorry... for Nearly Dying

First, I must make It clear what has taken place before this day. A friend called me and said;

"I am Sorry
I cried"
And I asked "Well, why?"
"Because today...
Today I nearly Died"

he had nearly died...
And he had called
Merely
To apologize

The following is from a conversation with another friend, and a realization that made me cry.... I said;

he apologized.. for nearly dieing... i just don't get it
"I can remember passing through
And all i could think of
Is that i was leaving you"
I was embracing death
before the end of life
and now all i can do
is question why
Why i was leaving
Someone i loved so damn dearly
behind
i apologize....

maybe... he was afraid him nearly dying was enough to upset everyone, enough to be sorry for...
But... I didn't thank him for staying...

Then she told me that I was not to post here. That i was not to let you read this... But i decided this;

I want them to see i feel
i want them to see
i want Her to see
that she has made a better person come forth, someone who doesn't need a shallow relationship to feel
i want everyone to know that this hollow shell
does
have a heart after all

i feel what others give me to feel
i want them to see
that i feel with what they give me...
I want them to realize
i want you to realize that
i am NOTHING without any of you...
you are my heart, many but one

she asked : really?

i don't say things only because they are pretty, I've had that done enough to me to know what the damage done is

Life will not be taken for granted... I apologize for all the times...
i thought you might be better off without me....