I never meant for us to grow this far apart,
but too much has changed
and it's impossible to go back to the way it was.
I don't think my heart could handle trying,
because everytime I look at you,
I'm reminded of what you meant to me,
and who I was then.
It's painful when my past is so far away,
yet right in front of me.
I guess there's no point in lying to you now,
seeing that I'll probably never see you again,
but I never trusted you fully.
No one really gets my full trust,
but you sure came close.
I look back and I feel ashamed that
I wasn't completely open with you,
and I regret that choice of unhonesty.
But there was a time where everything changed,
and you seemed like a different person,
and I guess you were just becoming
more of who you are. Maybe all this time
alone got to me. I could feel the distance
tearing us apart, and I couldn't find the
courage to do anything about it,
believe me, I wanted to,
but the shame in my stomach weighed me down.
But most of all, I just want you to know
that you have forever changed me,
and you'll always be in my heart.
Know that both my eyes and heart are
full as I write this, that I'll sincerely miss you
and I'll hld your memory deep inside me,
and I never did mean for us to grow this far apart.
