Memories are all i have

One moment you are together
Just him and you
The next moment you are alone
Trying to pull yourself through

I found out he was dead
After getting ready to see him after school
I remember that shock
When i recieved that phone call

It hurts to think back
It makes it seem too real
It chokes me up inside
To the emotions i dont want to feel

The pain is so strong
I feel so much hurt and regret
I want to go to sleep forever
So i can simply forget

I was with him just that weekend
I didnt know he would take his life
I feel so angry that i didnt help him
The pain cuts deeper than a knife

I just want to hear his voice
I just want to see his smile
I want him to speak to me
Even if its just for a little while

I dont understand
How his body still remains
But his soul has disappeared
And left everyone in pain

Why did he do this?
His life wasnt all that bad
Why would he want to hurt us
And make everyone so sad

I just cant get over it
There was no note
no final goodbye

I will always search for the awnsers
Untill the day i finally die

But till then i have memories
They take me back in time
I wake up thinking
That he is still mine

I invision every expression on his face
Every day every word he said
Sometimes i just cant wait till the day that i am dead

I want to ask him questions
I want the reasons why
I want to cuddle him for eternity
And never say goodbye.