The night is still,
but my heart is thumping.
Each memory makes it beat harder.
Nagging and needing,
Something I cannot give
feels like i cannot live,
without him
The breeze of night,Lovely,
and guilting me.
Regretting the unspoken heart,wanting to let free
he not understanding me...
I wont let him
because i have to protect him
Must suppress and not address,
me wanting him.
Reality must stifle this fire,
For i cannot give in to my desire
a lier, I have become.
To hide this pride of mine
I'm not fine,with a disobedient heart
Wanting to say,what I'm thinking everyday.
He loves me,
and i, yes i, put on a stoned faced mask.
Tears come fast,
letting him heal,rather than bringing up the past.
I turn away without a sound
My face is mute and my hands are bound
yet,in the midst of chaos, my heart is spoken for,unsound,
Take a closer look and you will find, that my heart speaks,rather bleeds through my eyes.
(this is about a girl who wanted to protect the guy she loved....he joined the military...but she thought about him everyday...but he doesn't know that...she wishes she could tell him but she cant...things are different now and she would do anything to just tell him that she has always loved him....but she nvr ever wants to hurt him again so I'm trying to help him heal by pretending to be someone I'm not)
