The List Never Ends

You asked me for all the reasons that I felt like you hated me. You asked for a list of things of how you had hurt me. I never got around to finishing it before our friendship ended, so here it is now. I finally finished it!

*You ring me up crying, and ask if I can look after your dog because you couldn't have a dog in the place you're moving into, I explained how I personally couldn't because of my cat, he'd been attacked by a dog of the exact same breed.. of course he's going to freak out and maybe never come back this time. So I ring my brother up, and ask if he can on the condition that you provide the food for her and come down and see her every weekend. He said yes.

I got my brother to look after your dog so that you didn't have to put her down.. I did this because I knew it would kill you if you had to put her down. My brother he would, so you bring the dog to his house. A month goes by and every-thing's cool.. but then you stop going down to see her and my brother had to keep getting her dog food.. this went on for 3 months Jodie.. 3 months! You didn't call to see how she was, you never got in touch with my brother about anything. All because your mum didn't have the money to buy the food. My brother would've understood if you had've rang him.

So another goes by, and I ring you up. My brother was moving house and couldn't have dogs there. So I ring you up and say you have to come get the dog, not straight away but by the end of next week. So you find someone else to look after the dog, when you come and pick up the dog you walk in the house without saying a word to anyone (with your mum), walk straight through the house to the backyard, walk back through the house with the dog without a word and take off. What the hell?? You could've said "Thank you for looking after the dog Steven" but no.. what the fk?

*When I found out that Jay had cheated on me, you tell me "I told you so".. not "Are you OK?" not "Forget about him he ain't worth it, he's a Dkhead for cheating you" but "I told you so". I was hurting so much by the fact that he cheated on me, but it made it worse when you (my supposed Best friend) weren't even there for me. Then in your letters write crap like "he's a fk*king a*sehole"... you even said stuff like that in your letters while we were together.. you never even met him! You didn't know a thing about him. Yes I told you what happened when we were arguing but you still never even thought about what you were saying Jodie.

*My brother was in an accident and nearly died. I told you and all you said was "You'll Live". Not "is he OK?" not "what happened?" and not "are you OK?" but "you'll live". You said "you'll live" so many times i needed you Jodie and you didn't care how much it hurt me.

*We were best friends for 12 months, then you move closer to one of our other friends, so you go and visit her all the time, getting closer to her, shutting me out. You turned her against me in the end. I don't care about the fact that you started getting closer to her, it's just the fact that you shut me out and turned to her. Yet when I asked you if she was your new best friend, you lied to me and said No. This happened on like 6 or 7 occasions.. you lied and said No. But as our friendship started really totally unraveling you told me she was your new best friend and said your reason for not telling me is that you didn't want to hurt me. Well Jodie, if you didn't want to hurt me you could've told me the truth in the first place, you knew I would find out.

*When me and one of the others (friends in the group) have an argument, automatically you take sides with them EVEN THOUGH no one told you to and EVEN THOUGH you don't know my side, because you won't even listen to me. I mean Jesus Jodie, when it has nothing to do with you, how can you tell me you were right for taking sides huh?

*Every time I tried to open up to you you'd turn around and say "You'll live" as usual, or "Oh well". That was another famous line from you.

*Whenever we'd try and work things out you wouldn't listen to me yet I always had to listen to you.

*You'd tell me to grow up and act my age. Yet you were exactly the same.

*You stood by me when I chose you and Daniel over Nina.. you could've been there saying "don't choose, it isn't worth losing a friend over". I'm not saying I regret doing it because I don't. I could see us being friends for a really long time whereas with Nina I didn't see it.

*I'd tell you a problem and you'd turn around and say "Do you want me to stop being your friend?" Like Jesus..

*When I open up to you about my Dad who died when I was 2, you say "well at least your dad's up there and he's proud of you, my dad doesn't even want to see me". Jodie, you live around the corner from him and you see him all the time. At least you see your Dad, I never got a chance to even know my Dad. I don't even have a memory of him. Every time you'd tell me about your dad you wouldn't consider my feelings. And when I argued back with you with things about my Dad you shut me out. Why did I always have to listen to you, yet you never listened to me.

*You write other friends letters about me and stab me in the back. All this and I still... I STILL stood by you.

The list just keeps going on and on and on Jodie. I hate you more then anything now.. you're bi*ch! A cold, hard, bi*ch! And you don't care about who you hurt, who you kill deep inside. The only person you care about is yourself. You say you hate Liars! Take a look in the mirror. Do you hate yourself?