Pain and love

All my life iv welcomed pain
iv done so many things wrong
so many things i cant change
my life is such a mess
i don't know who i am
i have so much regret

i lay in bed at night
listening to the rain
i cry so many tears
so many tears of pain
silent tears in the dark
silent tears that leave no mark

I'm so in love with her
but she doesn't see
she doesn't know
how much she means to me
i can tell her a thousand times
but it wouldn't be enough
because the love i feel for her
can never be described

shes the only thing in my life I'm sure about
the only thing that matters
she takes away my pain
she makes everything OK
I'm not afraid of death
I'm afraid of loosing her
I'm afraid of living without her
without her i feel lost
I'm in love with her

if i don't live to see tomorrow
i hope she knows how much i loved her
i hope she feels no sorrow
i know she will be OK without me
because ill be her angel
always look over her
and protect her from pain
i just hope she doesn't forget my name