Betrayal

I want to remember all of you.
If I try real hard, I may feel you laying here next to me.
Maybe your breath on my kneck, and the sound of your heart beating one with mine.
I wonder if you remember those comfortable silences, where no words needed to be said.
Being in your company was always enough.
I cannot look at you in that way any longer.
There's no peace, no comport, only your ultimate betrayal.
Do you think of me? and how do you feel when our eyes must meet?
I cannot push out these images that will be forever inbeded in my head, the images of your betrayal, and the ones that are still yet to come.
Because of you I will never be the same, and I probably won't love the way I loved when I was one with you.
I wonder some days if you were my destiny, but then it's quickly replaced with tiny little reminders of who you really are.
I cannot forget nor will I ever dismiss the constant earthquake I endured after being one with you.
Go and be whatever it is your trying to be, and baby one day you will think of me.
Then it will be you that will need to find peace, in all that was done when you were with me.

Mary Walker