Dieing NOW!!!!!!!

I wanna die here
And die NOW,
Scared I do appear
I just keep wondering how????
We were friends so was said
Why'd he do it?
Just wishing I was dead
In me grows a black pit,
He touched and felt
I said STOP,
Without help how could I've dealt?
Scared ready to drop,
Still saying stop to him
Trying to push him away,
Lighting getting dim
He tells me stay,
Try to scream but I only squeek
No way anymore for me to speak,
Crying now want to be dead
Didn't get far thankful,
Sight had went black to red
Now ALL is dreadful,
No more guy friends
Cause him all it ends,
No longer talk
No longer go for a walk,
Just sit here and write
Till I'll lose my sight,
So I say to you
What would you do?