Die Cold Lonely

I act happy
I act sober
But I am drunk on pain
It runs me
This pain is all I have to keep me alive
Without it I am dead

I don't like to feel pain around you
So I pretend
I lie
I lie to you everyday
When I smile, laugh
When I live

But you are too smart
You see right through my cover
I didn't fool you

Now since you know
All I can do to make this go away
Is die, cold, lonely